Looks like I’m being pencilled in to be Secretary of the Local AA meeting and I understand it’s an Honour and an Expression of Faith in my Abilities. Additionally I know it will be good for me and the meeting. Where I get hesitant about taking the role is when I dwell upon my 26 year involvement in this area and its Meetings. There has always been friction between myself and some of the long term Members for me it always appears to be about trying to carry a Message of Recovery whilst meeting strong resistance from the just don’t Drink and you’ll be fine Brigade. This is obviously not the case and in the 4 months I have been attending I’ve watched all the New Comers disappear and Honestly believe it’s because they have been offered nothing which would make them want to stay. They are not the only People to disappear 2 of my biggest Detractors went as soon as I started coming again. My best Buddy Sean thinks I’m Paranoid but I will take bets off anyone [not GA Members Thank You] that if I take over others will follow them to the Exit leaving me on my own Feeling that Oldest of Emotions of thee Addict. My fragile Ego and my fledgling Recovery may be affected by these Events as no one likes to be involved in too much unpleasantness. Thankfully I won’t be entirely alone cause that Fucker Sean better be there with me as I have been told He put my name forward!
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